Waiting on Yesterday

Waiting on yesterday

Before youth escapes me

And where one day has always been

The finish of all I began

A lonely triumph to victory

The solace of worthy

The forgotten less of worthiness

And the more adored was once a bore

Incoherent Ease

Loose thrills—incoherent ease

Prude insecurities worry so confidently

Hasty negativity rushes what will happen—what will be?

Imagination drills reality

Screwing what could be

Do you believe in only what you see?

What’s been sawed between you and me?

Dusty particles or ratios of ideals

Someone’s idea pays the bills

Sweeping another into a closet of skills

Dimensions of Belief

Cities cry

Neighborhoods hide

The illusions of my eyes

My tricky eyes

Mirrors shown

Revealing what’s to know

The reflecting unknown

My mind plays see-saw

And only the known sees

Waiting for the sight I seek

A vision I questioned

An answer I’ll meet

Through the dimensions of belief

Simplify Me

Some days send hours like bullies

Tough as the rough,

Standing tall

I won’t back down

Enough is enough

The night rushes upon me

All I could have done is all I see

How the minutes tick dizzily

Breaking through what is left of me

Scared emotionally

I’m just a woman can’t you see?

Plug me into rest

Like a rechargeable power

Tomorrow will be a full battery

Tonight—simplify me

Lay me into fragile

Like silky folds

Unravel me softly

Wreckage of Fiends

Standing on broken lines

Pacing the streets

Stop!  Caution or sign?

Turn from Reality onto the one-way Dreams

Continue until you reach the screams of Death

Life is ticking no time to rest

Push forward to the gravel of escape

You can’t turn back now it’s too late

Reality always has a scheme

How do you know memories from your dreams?

Prick a hole in your skin…now are you awake?

How to choose what you hold in your arms

A Mother’s love—warm embrace

A lover’s frame—with or without shame

What ever happened to what’s their name?

The one who made you special, before,

Chemical created every occasion

Guest of honor…you

A kingdom that travels

Through a fiend to crown a King

And, dethrone a Queen

Caring Carelessly

All the things I didn’t want you to know

You saw me so distant

So cold

In every hold

I was waiting for the let go

The hurt to unfold

I ran to have a place for the love to go

I lost pieces of me

Hoping how much I cared didn’t show

But, I knew you would only find what I told

And I can never say much simple

And you can’t be complicated

Together we are too jagged

 Separate cuts

I’m weaken by your strength

You dominate no purpose or intent

If only we stayed forgotten

My heart wouldn’t be mockery

How easy you seek me

  How easy you forget me

Hardly have you gotten me

I flow for the rhythm

Live acapella

No recorded deal

I get inspiration to voice what I feel

Gratification upon my satisfaction

How you amuse

Who forgot to show you attention?

On the one thing I can spare—moments

I wanted you to own it

Sign your perception on the line of reality

I wanted to be nasty

I wanted to be mean

But, I always keep my conscious clean

And I already pretended to be trashy

I wanted random pieces of your time

To create rhythm on times rhyme

Cherished memories

 Not molded to my mind

I already know that you’re not my kind

My troubles were never yours to find

Or the happiness that is always shortly behind

My feelings are not under my control

I can’t forbid them to show

A part of me you helped to grow

I care for you carelessly

And I want to share that with you fearlessly

To coward to thoughts would be a tragedy  

You are a big deal that I want to feel

My Dark Sky

Belonging to the illumination of the moon

you were a diamond that shined

bright in my dark sky

the piece of coal

you shouldn't know

A star that glittered against my nothingness

like the shatter of broken glass

you reflected off the pieces of me

reflecting my dreams

how did you find a way into my reality

your sentiment alluded me

The magical atmosphere

your were a magician to my illusion

I must of cut your vision

deceiving my image

you saw blurry

Shining light

with honest lies

in my truth you lied

hoping I would find

a place to be alright

your glow hid me

I couldn't be the dim of you

Without being the depth of you

You knew what I couldn't do

I could never belong against you

I'm the blackness beneath you