Caring Carelessly

All the things I didn’t want you to know

You saw me so distant

So cold

In every hold

I was waiting for the let go

The hurt to unfold

I ran to have a place for the love to go

I lost pieces of me

Hoping how much I cared didn’t show

But, I knew you would only find what I told

And I can never say much simple

And you can’t be complicated

Together we are too jagged

 Separate cuts

I’m weaken by your strength

You dominate no purpose or intent

If only we stayed forgotten

My heart wouldn’t be mockery

How easy you seek me

  How easy you forget me

Hardly have you gotten me

I flow for the rhythm

Live acapella

No recorded deal

I get inspiration to voice what I feel

Gratification upon my satisfaction

How you amuse

Who forgot to show you attention?

On the one thing I can spare—moments

I wanted you to own it

Sign your perception on the line of reality

I wanted to be nasty

I wanted to be mean

But, I always keep my conscious clean

And I already pretended to be trashy

I wanted random pieces of your time

To create rhythm on times rhyme

Cherished memories

 Not molded to my mind

I already know that you’re not my kind

My troubles were never yours to find

Or the happiness that is always shortly behind

My feelings are not under my control

I can’t forbid them to show

A part of me you helped to grow

I care for you carelessly

And I want to share that with you fearlessly

To coward to thoughts would be a tragedy  

You are a big deal that I want to feel